Scalding validation

Four the 'th time uncounted, one loses track after a number of scars.

Validation of my philosophy's regarding myself.

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People never seem to understand. I try and explain it in an effective way, but that never works and im beginning to accept that its me thats the problem. Everyone else can't be wrong. Even if they were, i will never escape their perception. Yes, its a very self-loathing point of view. After a certain point one begins to become apathetically depressed, disregarding value for themselves.

Don't tell me to be happy.

Don't tell me to change my perspective.

Don't tell me.

Everyone has walked around me. When they get close to me they bail, or I leave to prevent that.

So im sorry. Truely. No-one deserves my pursuit or love, that curse of emotional want. Its toxic and i accept that. You never deserved to be hurt the way you said i hurt you. Im at fault and i admit it.

If its true, you'll never be the same. So it would see logical that restitution in this eye for an eye justice would be to scar myself in a manner measurable by others.

So, here's to nothing, or hell. Its one or the other. I've lived my placement there, and i accept it.

Dont worry, i wont go out with a splash. Ill keep it on the low key, down low.